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I believe that I stole this quote from my father, but damn, it feels good…to feel good.

When I went to bed last night, I knew today was going to be a better day for me. I don’t know how I knew or why, I just knew. After a solid 10 hours of slumber, I REALLY knew that today, I was gonna be just fine.

Now, this may have been a bit over-confident of me, as I had been dreading this stage 8 for a couple days now. Featuring over 3700m of climbing (that’s above 12,000ft for you Americanos), and especially with yesterday having been ‘easy’–today was going to be brutal, no matter what.

So for me, today was a day where I NEEDED to feel good, otherwise my ability to continue this most epic of Vueltas would be in serious jeopardy.

The stage started uphill, not for very long, but the first 20km were very undulating. And I know by now what undulating means here in Spain. Very, very hard.

Yesterday’s breakaway went right at the drop of the flag. While I still kept my fingers crossed that maybe, just maybe it could happen again today, I had to remain realistic. After yesterday’s cruise, everyone and their mother wanted to be in the breakaway.

Just hang on.

I knew in the neutral that I finally had decent legs. That aching I had experienced the first 6 days was gone, I felt like someone had tuned my engine and I was finally running back to normal. In the past few days, when the peloton hit a hill, I would go backwards almost so fast I needed brake lights. Today I found myself, found my gear, found my legs. I even kept telling myself, you can do this.

You can do this.

Meanwhile, a big breakaway of 27 had gotten away. This was not good. But, where I usually would be nervous, today I was not.

You can do this.

I even found my ability to be at the front, and STAY at the front. Liquigas chased hard as the red jersey of Chavanel was up the road in the group of 27.

By now we were approaching the first, biggest, and most difficult climb of the day. I kept my fingers crossed that we would catch the group by the base and let something else go…otherwise, if Liquigas is riding all out on a climb…everything would blow to pieces.

Luckily, blow to pieces we did not. The group of 27 was caught and another little break of 4 was let go before we even hit the climb. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief as the pace settled.

While I did in fact have good legs today, I am still 82kg and climbs do HURT. Even when we are going ‘slow’. I kept positive, and tried to settle in.

You can do this.

A couple km from the top I was starting to suffer, I found myself at the rear of the peloton after drifting back over the entirety of the last 17km of climbing. It was do or die and I gritted my teeth and held on. As we crossed the top, I heaved in some big gulps of air and gave myself a pat on the back.

You CAN do this!

After the descent the pack settled into a nice rhythm for the next kms as our second climb was still an hour and half or so away. The road was by no means flat, but I had made it over the biggest climb of the day and felt comfortable. As comfortable as one can feel racing a bike…

I ate, I drank, and before I knew it, the next climb was fast approaching.

Upon hitting the base, I kept an ear out for anyone calling for a grupetto as the climb was long enough to cause some pain to us big folk. The pace wasn’t terribly high however and I knew that if it stayed that way, I’d just have to man up and hold on to the peloton.

Just as a side note; I felt good today, but I was still planning on jumping into the grupetto as soon as I had the chance! I want to prolong these good sensations as much as possible…and to do that I need to save energy where ever I can!

I managed to hang on to the pack for the second climb, but was forced to stop for a crash about 500m from the top. As the speed was being maintained in the front, and we had just come to a standstill, I knew that we would have to chase pretty hard to make it back–especially considering there was a very short downhill which ran right into another climb. We dangled off the main peloton for a couple km and I did my part at the front of our group to get Santambrogio back to the pack as he had also been delayed on the climb.

He made it back, and then I even made it back a couple km later, leaving some other riders behind.

Huh. I like feeling good!

The next climb, I was sure that a grupetto would form, as the base was only 30km from the finish. We hit the bottom quite hot and shouts of ‘grupetto!’, ‘GRUPETTO!’ erupted from around me. I eased up, along with some of my grupetto mates from days prior.

A friend of mine who I have spent a fair amount of time with here in Spain, Robert Wagner, came up to me and exclaimed ‘We’re safe! On to tomorrow…’

We were in fact safe. I kept hydrated and fueled and we rolled the last 30km as easy as we could. In the last km we also caught a bigger group that had been up the road with Sagan and Cancellara. Meanwhile, there was even a big group behind us. I hadn’t been the first to get dropped today! Sometimes you have to celebrate the little victories…

On to tomorrow.

-tp

Hope. That is my word of the day…

Today, for the first time in this race I started to think that maybe, just maybe…I can do this.

Why the change in mentality? Did you not think you could do it before?

Well, let me be frank. When you are off the back of a bike race with only 3 other guys for 170km and barely finish the stage within time limit–like I was on Stage 5–and THEN have 2 of your 3 compatriots drop out of the race the next day… Mentally, you begin to question what the hell you are doing here in the first place.

My mindset hasnt CHANGED per se, it has just evolved. Why?

Today was easy. EASY I tell you! Note: I still rode my bike for 5 hours and burned 3500 calories…but at this level, that is easy.

Today was the day that the break went at the drop of the flag and contained only four riders, all of which were very far back on general classification.

Today was the day that for almost 120km I had conversations with people, could laugh, could eat…

Today was stress free. And I LOVED it. Man, did I need today. I soaked up every minute of it…

AND, to top it all off, no knee pain! Hallelujah!

Today, however, was not a perfect day. But to be honest, I’m not too bothered.

As things began to wind up in the latter half of the race, my legs were feeling good, my head was clear and I was ready to be up in the front to help Greg with the finish, or go for it myself if need be. The kms flew by and over the radio Rik kept reminding us of a potential cross-wind section we needed to be alert for. As we geared up for it, the racing went from relaxed to nervous quite quickly–other teams clearly recieving the same orders to be up front from their respective team directors.

The road was undulating, like always, but today I had no problems. Today I was back to my old self, I felt brand new. As we neared the right turn where these crosswinds were supposed to be waiting to split our lovely peloton to bits, I was comfortably at the front, the end-of-race adrenaline kicking in.

The road surface was terrible, little holes everywhere. As soon as I thought, ‘this would be a terrible time to puncture,’ I looked down at my front wheel and sure enough…it was flat. Now, mind you, we only have 30km to go at this moment in time and are going downhill at somewhere between Mach 9 and Mach 10. We had just turned right and in front of me I saw the black and blue of Sky, Garmin, and Quickstep attempting to blow the pack to pieces.

I was…quite literally…screwed. Even from where I was it would have been a big effort to stay up front. Now I had to go to the back, wait for the team car, change my wheel and get going again from a dead stop.

Yeah, no bueno.

Stop, I did. Change wheel, I also did… Only to get caught up behind a crash a couple hundred meters after I got going.

While I fought and fought through the cars to make it back to the second half of the split peloton, I realized it would be best of me to just pull the plug, and roll in with a small group of guys who were in a similar position as I was.

Save energy. I’ve learned that the more I can save, the better I will be, and the longer I will make it through this race.

While I never like to get dropped, and would have loved to tear it up at the front today, I have to be happy with the fact that my legs are finally feeling good and that tomorrow is another day.

Peace and love.

-tp

After yesterday’s brutal day, my morale was actually surprisingly high. I had proved something to myself, and I had toughed out the two most difficult stages in this first week of La Vuelta

This morning, my morale stayed high as the race profile seemed to suggest that it wasn’t too hard until the final climb at 30km to go…where there would be yet another chance to ride in ‘easy’ with my grupetto brothers.

The goal for the day was to put someone in the breakaway. I was told to take it easy…as easy as one can take a grand tour stage.

And so, 10km into the race, I attacked…naturally! I saw an opportunity and I went for it. Must just be how I am wired or something. I found myself in a group of 4 containing a good friend of mine, Leigh Howard of HTC. We desperately tried to get away, and made some nice headway, reaching a gap of about 50 seconds at one point. Surely, I thought, they are going to let us go.

The rest of my thoughts ranged from ‘Taylor, you were supposed to take it easy what the hell are you doing’ to ‘F**k yeah! You’re going to be in a breakaway in the Vuelta! Go go go!’

And then 10km later Rik came on the radio.

‘Andalucia and Cofidis are riding hard at the front to bring you back.’

Both teams had missed the break and were now bringing us back so that they could then launch one of their riders.

When I heard this I knew our chances were over, but at the time, the four of us had began climbing a 2.5km climb-that-isn’t-a-climb. Shit, you need to keep the speed up otherwise you are gonna get caught and go straight out the back of the peloton! Already gassed from trying to get AWAY from the pack, I was now preparing to fight in order just to maintain contact.

Some days, pretty much every day here at the Vuelta, I really wish I didn’t weigh 82 kg. Thanks for the big bones and dense muscles Dad…

I dug deep, and put my head down as the group surged by, riders flying off the front. I was in pain but I had to hold on.

Hold on I did, just barely. With the help of a couple big pushes from Manuel Quiziato and Karsten Kroon, I survived and promptly spent the next 50km at the back just hanging on for dear life. The stage was supposed to be ‘flat’ but was most definitely not.

Guess I should know that by now. Excuse my naivety!

The break finally got established with Martin Kohler and 3 other guys. Cruise control set in and the rest of the race passed by, slowly, with that same dull pain constantly reminding me that what I am doing is not comfortable.

As we neared the final climb, the pace quickened and I did my part to get bottles and make sure Greg and Santambrogio were safe in the front. As we hit the base of the climb I pulled the plug and labored up it with most of my mates from yesterday.

When we rolled into the finish I made sure that I wasn’t the first one of the group across the line. I learned my lesson yesterday!

Another day in the books, plagued a little bit by a sore knee. Icing it now and hoping all will be ok!

Ta-Ta.

-tp

What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger…? That could have been my motto today, as I felt close to the light a few times.

After an incredibly boring 37 km of neutral, yes you read that correctly, 37 km, the race was off once again. Today we were to cover 187km, and according to various sources, the stage was much much harder than it appeared on paper.

Great.

After yesterday I could’ve used a nice day in bed, but I geared up like everyone else and got ready for the pain.

14km into the stage I was out the back. Again. It’s not that I felt terrible, I just didn’t have the mojo to hold on to the pack as attacks flew up the road left and right. It didn’t help that we were already climbing either. Pathetic really, but what can you do? Hang on for dear life.

This time, however, I was not alone, and this made me…I don’t want to say ‘happy’ because there was no happiness in the last 6 hours…I was, however, relieved in a way that I wouldn’t be alone for the next 173km. Hey, maybe we would make it back as the road leveled off…

Six of us fought through the cars, each taking turns at the front of our mini ‘breakaway-off-the-back’. We had hope that the pack would let a real breakaway go, and sit up, allowing us to return.

No break went. All I kept hearing over the radio was ‘pack is all together’.

We kept plugging away, losing ground fast. It was 6 against 180…those are not great odds. We fought and fought but to no avail. The first climb, that wasn’t even a categorized climb, finally relented and we began to descend down towards the first real climb of the day, which 120km later would also serve as the final climb of the day.

My head was all over the place.

Well, this will be your last stage Taylor, no way you’re making it back now. No, you have 5 other guys with you, if you keep it up, for the next 120km, you might just make it. But can I put myself through that? Yes, why couldn’t you? Man up!

The worst part of riding the last climb in the beginning of the race is that they have km markers starting at 10 and going all the way down to the red flag, which is 1km to go. It was the worst tease; knowing you have somewhere around 3 hours of pain and suffering until you would be passing through here again. And even if you do make it, will you have done enough to be within time cut?

Don’t think about that, just ride.

We were 70 or so km into the stage after passing the finish for the first time, with around 115km to go, and I wasn’t in a good place. SO MUCH CLIMBING. We would descend off of one ridge just to hit the bottom of a valley and then have to ride all the way up to the top of the other side. My sources were very right, this was a hard, hard stage.

And then 6, became 4. A Saxo Bank rider and a Skil Shimano rider began to distance themselves from the rest of us on yet another climb-that-wasn’t-a-climb. They didn’t attack, they simply just rode away, and were gone. So we were left with 4. Christensen from Saxo Bank, Vogondy from Cofidis, Tschopp from our team, and myself.

The next kms were a blur. My mind wandered from counting down the kilometers, to losing hope completely, to reminding myself to eat, to regaining hope, to feeling better on the bike, to feeling worse. I had a song stuck in my head; ‘I Gave You All’ by Mumford and Sons.

I questioned why I did this sport, I remembered what it felt like to win and what I have had to go through in the past to be strong enough for that big result. In reality, I had been in the position I was in today already many times before, in a completely different scenario, in a different country, in a different race. Cycling is about suffering, and you have to push your body further than it is willing to go. In the moment, I hated myself for what I was doing to my body although secretly I knew what I was doing was necessary if I wished to be better. I tried to trick myself into thinking that, hey, if there are 100km to go, then there are really 85km until the final climb which is two hours or so, and then 15km, and by the time you get there you will smell the finish so you’ll feel good… I will say, It did help…a bit.

Worst of all is that we were riding on highways for a fair amount of time in the stage. 4 guys, suffering, on a wide open highway. Traffic jam in front, traffic jam behind, all for us. I felt like apologizing to people as we went past…but I didn’t.

As we approached the feed zone, a small piece of me desperately wanted to get off my bike and quit. When I say a small part, I mean most of my body. I was done, but I couldn’t quit. They can time cut me, they can rip my number off, but unless I’m in real danger of injuring myself, I’m not gonna quit.

The kms clicked down. Slowly.

Hours went by.

Just the dull pain of my legs remained a constant reminder that I was alive and not lost in a dream.

And the heat! I haven’t even mentioned it…must be getting acclimatized or something.

Finally, after what felt like eternity, we passed the 25km to go sign. And then the 20km to go sign.

And then we were on the final climb. John Lelangue was in the car behind and informed us that we were cutting it close on the time cut, and would have to really give it on this last climb if we wanted to make it. I set the tempo, actually beginning to feel relatively OK. The climb was something like 8km and I made sure I didn’t go over my threshold. All of the sudden, about 4km into the climb, we rounded a bend and off in the distance, a couple turns ahead, we could see cars! And then we saw riders! The grupetto!!!

The tiny bit of hope I had kept all day was now amplifying exponentially with every meter we got closer to that lovely grupetto. You see, there are times when the grupetto finishes after time cut, but is allowed to continue due to it’s size. Usually, and I say USUALLY, if you are in a grupetto, you will be safe. As I cruised past the last of the cars, relief set in. I, along with my three dropped comrades, could finally breathe a sigh of relief. We patted each other on the back, and settled in.

We crested the top, and descended down to the finish. The last km of the race was straight up hill, featuring a nice section at around 25%. I was so done and dusted, so over the race, I couldn’t get it over with fast enough. I followed a friend of mine, Martijn Keizer, who I believe had similar thoughts, and we didn’t sprint up it, but we definitely went faster than ‘normal’. Honestly, I had a taste of the finish and I wanted to be done so fast that I disobeyed the cardinal rule of the grupetto.

Never attack the grupetto. Never.

While it wasn’t like I was straight up attacking my fellow grupetto mates, I had inadvertently dropped them in the last km. I attempted to slow in the final 100m, almost coming to a stand-still but, the finish, it was RIGHT THERE. I had been fighting so hard, for so long…all day in fact. I just couldn’t help myself.

For disobeying the cardinal rule, and pissing some of my favorite riders off, I’m deeply sorry.

Ahh, life of a neo-pro!

I made it, and at the end of the day that is all that matters. I’m enjoying a nice ice bath now…hope you have enjoyed the recap of today’s sufferfest.

One day at a time.

Bye for now…

-tp

10km into today’s stage I was getting dropped. I had nothing… In an internal dialogue in my head I began questioning myself, my legs, my head. What was wrong? Even upon waking this morning I could tell I wasn’t firing on all cylinders. I was quiet, and just generally down. As the gap between myself and the pack grew I tried to settle in to a good rhythm. Was I lacking fitness? Well, no. I had just won the prologue at Eneco and finished 4th overall. Granted, Eneco is an entirely different race than the Vuelta, but still, good fitness is good fitness. Was I tired, still not fully recovered from the efforts I put out there? Maybe. I had 5 days in between, one of those days ruined by a stomach bug, the other by a crash. Was it the heat? Could be.

All I knew is I wasn’t my usual self today. But I fight. And that is what I did.

I made it back to the pack as the breakaway was let go and the pace eased up. There still remained about 15km of climbing however and even when I got there, I continued to yoyo. I would have moments where I felt fine, and then all of the sudden I couldn’t do it anymore. My legs and mind would quit on me. And we weren’t even going that fast.

I made it to the top and got up to the front for the dangerous descent.

All fine, I refueled, tried to tell myself I would bounce back. But soon enough, the road pitched up again and I found myself in the same place as before…going backwards…faster than I would like. I briefly lost contact, by myself, but then I made it back.

Most of the rest of the stage cruised by on a big open highway. Again, I refueled and told myself I would come around. As we hit a few rollers before the penultimate climb of the day I began to yoyo once more, but this time I wasn’t the only one. Cavendish had been dropped. This provided a bit of relief as I figured I would be ok, if/when I got dropped since he was already out the back.

Then, at possibly the worst possible moment, I got a flat–just at the base of the penultimate climb. I changed it and attempted to regain contact but made sure to stay within myself. And Cav was behind me…I would be ok, right?

As I was settling into my rhythm, the pack 200m in front of me–but pulling away, Rik came on the radio: ‘Cavendish has abandoned, Cavendish has abandoned.’

Oh shit.

I minimized the damage from myself to the peloton as I crested the top and took a thrilling ride through the caravan on the descent. I could still see them, I might not catch them, but they were there.

The final climb was a grueling 20+km up to Sierra Nevada.

I came off the descent still behind the peloton, but close enough that I knew it was plausible for me to catch the grupetto once it formed. Yet again, I tried to find my rhythm, sitting at some puzzlingly low numbers, but holding them, which was all that mattered. As the km clicked by, slowly, I began to lose faith. I was alone. I had John Lelangue in the car behind me, giving me time splits to the grupetto…but I couldn’t SEE them. I began to get lost in thought, imagining my solo ride all the way up to the top, unsure of whether I’d make the time cut. I was so lost I hadn’t noticed the fact that I was in the cars again, and then before I knew it, there it was. The grupetto.

I made my way up to it one pedal stroke at a time, and joined my slow-climbing compatriots in their struggle to the top of Sierra Nevada.

I definitely still struggled, but I wasn’t alone and finished with them 24 minutes down. Very much within time cut.

I am now attempting to refuel my body for another day of torture tomorrow.

Bye for now.

So yeah, I missed the start today. It isn’t QUITE as bad as it sounds, and I am sure some of you out there are shaking your heads. If I may point out, I was with Cancellara coming back through the cars in the neutral… It happens often that riders miss the start, just has never happened to ME before.

A little background that allowed me to do this: we had an 8.9km neutral today, where the peloton rides along at a slow pace, parading through the town we start in. There is no attacking in the neutral, nothing really happens at all, besides nature breaks and mechanical changes. ALSO, there are about 50+ cars that follow us who provide draft for a quick return to the peloton. So there was no panicking on my part, or anyone’s part that I had ground to make up.

I was late because I needed to stop at the car to get a magnet on my front wheel for my SRM’s speedometer to work. No matter. On my way through the caravan (the name for the 50+ cars behind the pack), I decided to get a bit of fishnet around my calf and knee to make sure the bandages I had on from my previous crash didn’t fall off and expose my wounds to the scorching sun. I rode up to a medics car, struggled a bit to get the message of what I needed across, but finally, after some heated pointing, was all set and back to making my way to the peloton.

And then I almost crashed. Just a side note, all of this has happened before or in the neutral 8.9km of a stage that don’t even COUNT to the total of the 163km we had to then complete. Eventful.

I almost crashed the same way I crashed the other day. I approached a 90 degree left turn at a speed I felt was comfortable and must’ve hit another patch of oil because my front wheel slipped out and by some divine intervention regained its grip. I came out of the corner thanking my lucky stars and let out a huge sigh of relief, that would not have been good.

I made it to the group just as the neutral was over and suffered at the back while attacks flew off the front. I accepted my fate of being at the back and staying at the back and I just tried to keep a rhythm. Before I knew it the break was gone and the day’s most relaxing part could begin. After the break goes the peloton sits up and relaxes for anywhere between 5 and 45 minutes.

My job on the day was to save my energy and that is what I did. Approached the first climb of the day at the back and promptly got dropped with some big sprinters like Cav and Kittel, as well as the likes of Tony Martin. We rolled in to the finish 12 mins down.

Job done.

Tomorrow is going to suck, 30km climb right off the bat. I don’t wanna think about it…bye!

-tp